2005-04-11

soulswallo: (Aeryn-Keep Me Down (jenahna))
2005-04-11 12:48 pm

Don't look back

I am in a weird ass mood today. I'm not sure whether I want to laugh or cry (No, [livejournal.com profile] ebarnon, I'm not bi-polar. Thanks for asking.). I'm just feeling bizarre. I go through these stupid spirals were I'll be totally social and have a blast whenever I see/get together with/talk to my friends and then I'll want to crawl into a hole somewhere and wrap myself in layers of lonliness. It's fascinating once it's over, but it kinda sucks while it's happening. I even know why I'm sitting pretty in the downward part of this particular spiral... and frankly it's my own fault. I let myself worry too much about things I can't change. I let myself become stressed and over-worked. It's a really stupid thing to let happen to myself. All I have to do is back away from what I'm doing. Walk away. Don't look back. Compartmentalize my work stuff so that I only deal with it at work. But I don't. I let things simmer inside.

And not I've reached the point where I think I'm kinda over-sharing. Sorry. Ignore the above if you so desire. Or don't. I'm in that place in my head where either way is fine with me.

Wow. I'm totally starving. I guess that means it's time to eat.