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I'm hovering in a place between depression and something else. I desperately want to find a new job, yet I don't even know where to start. I cleaned my room to clear my head and allow myself to think. Still nothing. I'm sad that I'm not going to be able to buy a house this year (I want, want, want my own place to live). All this STUFF just drags me down. I don't know how to put it any other way. I know that everyone goes through this in one way or another. I just want more than what I have right now. That's not too much to ask. I want to be more.
Speaking of jobs ... (and I wrote some of this over at Soulswallo) ... I'd really like to do something in publishing or with books. Even working at a bookstore would be a better than what I'm doing now. At least I'd be around books. Except that I'd still have the customer angle. I'd like to be in charge of buying books for a bookstore. That would be fun. It would be even more fun to work at home and get to spend time with Cole and still make money. Maybe I could write reviews and proofread. Actually, I might be too nice to write reviews. I always want to focus on the positive, even if it's a horrible book or movie. So, writing reviews might be out. Hmm. I'll have to give it some more thought. I just know that I don't want to stay at the bank any more.
That's all.
I'm hovering in a place between depression and something else. I desperately want to find a new job, yet I don't even know where to start. I cleaned my room to clear my head and allow myself to think. Still nothing. I'm sad that I'm not going to be able to buy a house this year (I want, want, want my own place to live). All this STUFF just drags me down. I don't know how to put it any other way. I know that everyone goes through this in one way or another. I just want more than what I have right now. That's not too much to ask. I want to be more.
Speaking of jobs ... (and I wrote some of this over at Soulswallo) ... I'd really like to do something in publishing or with books. Even working at a bookstore would be a better than what I'm doing now. At least I'd be around books. Except that I'd still have the customer angle. I'd like to be in charge of buying books for a bookstore. That would be fun. It would be even more fun to work at home and get to spend time with Cole and still make money. Maybe I could write reviews and proofread. Actually, I might be too nice to write reviews. I always want to focus on the positive, even if it's a horrible book or movie. So, writing reviews might be out. Hmm. I'll have to give it some more thought. I just know that I don't want to stay at the bank any more.
That's all.
